Brooklyn ❤️s Lidia! Last night was a standing room only swoonfest. At one point I looked around and realized that I was standing in the middle of a hexagram between @lidiamiles @amberrosetamblyn Kate McKinnon Maggie Rogers @calvertmorgan and @abbeyryan8 and I just wanted to bust out and start doing the moves from The OA. On the ride back to Philly, @abbeyryan8 said to me: “I felt like her words were for me.” Yup.
#verge 🧜♀️
Found it! #TBT to go with this week’s essay at The Rumpus (linked in bio):
Does everyone question their right to belong? By eight, my knees and elbows were scratched raw from the fastening and unfastening of selves. Marrying my best friend made me feel rooted. Leaving him meant facing the possibility that I didn’t belong anywhere.
After a few months, I got tired of myself and went out in search of soup. I was leaving the Whole Foods parking lot when I bumped into a six-foot-five action hero, like if a Viking had reincarnated into a body-building pharmaceutical salesman. He looked at the pile of books next to my bed and said, “I’ve been known to crush a few books.” Whenever we hooked up, I patted him on the back like a giant baby while he cried about how much he missed his ex. We spent weekend afternoons sleeping behind closed blinds.
In the only photo taken of me that New Year’s Eve, I’m standing on top of a table wearing a rhinestone paper tiara, looking manic and terrified, trying so hard to seem hopeful.
Lately, I’ve been feeling that same sense of dread.
What if 2020 is just a bigger, dumber, and more dangerous version of the year we left behind?
#tbt #finasco #tiara #therumpus
NEW at The Rumpus: THE YEAR OF THE DEFECTOR. Link in profile. “After a few months, I got tired of myself and went out in search of soup. I was leaving the Whole Foods parking lot when I bumped into a six-foot-five action hero, like if a Viking had reincarnated into a body-building pharmaceutical salesman. He looked at the pile next to my bed and said, ‘I’ve been known to crush a few books.’”
I feel so lucky to have been paired with the talented @motherstime.mum for my column at The Rumpus! My life cycles (ala Kuhn Model) in vivid color—tiara included! Now I need to see if I can find that photo. The brilliant @meganstielstra is tagged here because #earworms #stresssinging #therumpus
My latest is up at The Rumpus!
A very vulnerable piece, made even more so with my life cycle illustrated in vivid color by @motherstime.mum. (Dara, you are spectacular!) Here’s TURNING PURPLE: THE YEAR OF THE DEFECTOR
BY LEIGH HOPKINS
February 11th, 2020 “When my first marriage ended, he picked the East Village and I moved my little pile of things into a Philadelphia loft above a restaurant called Golden Chopsticks, a name that felt hopeful and shiny and new. When I looked around and realized that I was living alone in a city without anyone who really knew me, I bolted the door and didn’t come out.
Whenever I stood, my head felt lopsided and fuzzy. Sometimes it slid down my shoulders and made my back ache. I was frightened in a way that embarrassed me. The rent was too high. I drank too much. I slept at all the wrong times.
I called my brother in Atlanta. “I thought leaving would feel different,” I cried. “Maybe I made a mistake.” “You’ll be fine,” he said gently. “You’re never alone for long.” Alone wasn’t what scared me.” #therumpus #impeachmenthearings #elizabethwarren #lgbtq🌈 #writersofinstagram @motherstime.mum
The Pull. #verge @lidiamiles @riverheadbooks #fullmoon🌕 #thisbook
